April 8, 2011
Dear ____________,
Roots and wings. That is what I want to give to you,
and
why I am writing this letter. I don't expect to be leaving this earth
soon, but life is fragile, and surprises are around every corner. This is
a good time as any to put my thoughts down on paper, and share a little
personal and family history. Perhaps someday you can share this letter
with your children, but don't be compelled to produce them
now!
I have not accumulated many valuables
during my life that
I can pass on to you, but perhaps I can pass on
values
and lessons learned that could make your life softer and
sweeter. You are both teenagers now, and advice is
probably the last thing you want from me, yet I hope you
will embrace this letter anyway. It is written with love.
I hope this love will nurture you as you become caring and
fulfilled adults.
Much of what I share with you today was based on mistakes
I have made in
my life. I know I am far from perfect. I still have much
work to do to make myself a better human being, but life
has taught me a few things. Some I have acted upon, and
others I am still learning. I hope some of my words can
prevent you from distress, and help you secure more
happiness. These are my words of wisdom. Take what makes
sense to you.
At the age of 53, I am writing this letter to you to let
you know my feelings about the life I have lived, to honor
the relationships that have enriched my life, to help you
feel more connected to your relatives, and to express my
gratitude for all that I received including, the two of
you.
It wasn't easy conceiving you both. Remember that the
chance of a sperm and egg uniting is 200 million to one.
If you think about it, we have all already won the grand
prize lottery of all… LIFE. You are a cherished gift
because you are here. The icing on the cake is that you
both have so much joive de vivre, that it has
been a joy to watch you grow, and take life on with such gusto.
Seth, I especially cherish the moments when you would stop
to appreciate a beautiful sunset, even though your life is
often hectic. "Mom, Mom," you would cry. "You have to
come out and see this." I would run out, and we would
both stand in the middle of the street, probably ignoring
traffic, just to get the best angle on the horizon.
Hannah, most young mothers would have to deal with the
bewitching hour in the early evening when children
sometimes get crabby. You were always cheerful any time
of the day. You spoke very early, and the wisdom from
such a pitsala was amazing. Once, we were
driving
from Florida to see your grandparents, Grandma Barbara and
Grandpa Jerry, and we parked the car and played on the
beach. When we returned, someone broke into our car and
stole all our money. Your father and I were pretty upset,
but as we were driving back to Maryland, a little squeaky
voice from the car seat in the back said, Don't worry
mommy and daddy, it's only money." You were only two years old.
Our family is full of characters that live life to the
fullest. We are steeped in the arts. The act of creating
is in our DNA. Whether it is a painting, writing a poem,
performing a play or helping to create a better world, the
Dobkin's and Jensky's are all over it. Your Aunt Nori was
a professional artist. Many other family members were
drawn to painting. Grandma Rosy, Zeidie, Grandpa
Morris,
Aunt Ricki, and Aunt Helena to name a few. Many of us
were attracted to writing, poetry and theater.
You have obviously inherited this trait. Some of my
special memories are of you Seth on the stage having the
ball of your life. Even before you could talk, you could
sing. Your nickname was the "La La Boy" because you
picked up melodies so easily. Your Great Aunt Lillian,
Great Aunt Helena and especially Great Aunt Nori also
loved to perform. The three of them were called the
Dobkin
Sisters, and sang, danced and performed funny skits
throughout NYC and the "borsch belt" in the Catskill
Mountains in upstate New York during the summers. Often
they performed for fundraisers to promote workers' rights
and to help fight fascism abroad. They had beautiful
voices, and looks to match.
Grandma Rosy, Zeidie's mother, was the belle of the ball
with her cooking, entertaining, singing and of course
directing. She and Zeidie's family lived in a tiny
Brooklyn apartment near the subway tracks across from
Prospect Park when I was little. Uncles, aunts and cousins
lived close by and family gatherings were full of
fraeloch.
Hannah, when you were little, we would often dance in the
living room, and sometimes perform mini plays, so you too
inherited some theatrics. Your Great, Grandma Ruth (You
called her Mema.), loved to dance as does your Grandma
Barbara and your Great Aunt Ricki. In fact, I was raised
dancing and hearing old folk and political songs sung by
Grandma Barbara and Aunt Ricki.
Both sides of your family, the Dobkin's and Jensky's were
political with socialistic leanings. They all fought for
human rights including your Great Grandpa Morris, who was
Mema's husband. He died before you were born, but you both
possess his intellect and that of his brothers and sisters
(Max, Sam, Charlie, Jack, Aunt Jenks (Ida) and Aunt Toby
(Tillie).
Aunt Jenks gave me her stuffed cabbage recipe and was an
artist. She and her husband, Uncle Max were great
philanthropists. Seth, you were named after Aunt Toby.
She was a nurse who fought with the Lincoln Brigade" in
the Spanish Civil War against the fascists before WWII.
She is in a documentary called the "Good Fight." You
should watch it sometime. Grandpa Morris's brothers were
the first Five Beta Kappa at NY University. Uncle Jack was
a war hero, and died in a plane that was shot down over
Germany. Uncle Josh was named after him.
President Obama wrote in a letter to his two daughters,
Malia and Sasha, after he was elected president, "Only
when you hitch your wagon to something larger than
yourself that you will realize your true potential." Our
family has a long heritage serving others and fighting for
positive social change. Whether we were teachers, social
workers, or nurses, you come from a long line community
activists and advocates. I hope that no matter what
profession(s) you choose, you discover how fulfilling it
is to serve others.
You both march to your own drum, and that is something I
admire. Continue
being authentic. Follow your dreams, but remember to
create goals. Dreams are goals with deadlines. Be
accountable to yourself. Don't let excuses or obstacles
deter you from your path. Respect your path. Some of it
you can control and most of it you cannot. The serenity
prayer on my wall above my desk has provided an important
reminder of this. "God grant me the serenity to accept
the things I can change. Courage to change the things I
can and the wisdom to know the difference."
Life can get crazy at times. I know you both recognize
other peoples' dramas. Try not to get sucked into them.
There's a saying, "Don't sweat the small stuff, and
everything is small stuff." Rise above whenever you can.
If you don't, it can sap critical energy from doing
wonderful things in your life. Negativity is like gravity.
It pulls you down and is hard to resist. Being positive
takes more effort, but provides immeasurable dividends.
Try not to take yourself too seriously. Humor is really
the elixir of life. Cultivate your sense of humor and the
absurdities in life. It will make you and everyone around
you physically and emotionally healthier.
I have always followed my passion and I hope you do the
same. Remember, what you love you generally have a talent
for and what you have a talent for you love. Doing what
you love is the key to happiness. Should you follow your
"heart beat," you will never have to work a day in your
life. Your labor will be a labor of love.
Believe in yourself and your capabilities, especially
during challenging or confusing times. Trust your
intuition; your fist instincts are usually correct. Yet,
cultivate common sense too. It will guard you from many
mistakes if you take the time to think things through and
consider implications to prospective actions or decisions.
Slow down and try not to be impulsive. It may go against
your nature, but it will serve you well if you can
practice this balance.
You come from a hardworking, tenacious and stubborn stock.
With commitment and hard work you will get where ever it
is you want to be, and know that nothing great or worth
anything is ever easy. Remember that your best traits are
also your worse traits. Mine is tenacity. It sometimes
helps, but it sometimes hinders me from achieving my
goals. This self-awareness helps me back off at times. I
wish I could have flowed more in my life.
I was raised by my mother and father to be honest with
myself and with others. There is nothing noble about being
a liar. Lying will only hurt the people that love you and
cause them to mistrust you. Trust is difficult to earn
back. I know it is easier to lie at times. We see people
lying all around us. This makes me feel sad. Just because
many people act a certain way doesn't make it acceptable.
I know you both can rise to a higher standard. Grandma
Barbara would always say, "If everyone jumped off the
Brooklyn Bridge, should you?"
You come from a family of teachers. Education is
empowering, but remember education can be both formal and
informal and both are valuable. You also come from a
family that cherishes nature. I hope you continue to find
peace in nature, and that you protect her for the rest of
your life.
Remember, you are part of nature, of a greater spirit.
Take care of your body. Where will you live? I know you
make fun of me because I want you to eat more fresh fruits
and vegetables. I truly believe they are a gift from God.
Zeidie has eaten an orange and a pear everyday of his life
and he is playing tennis and golf at age 80.
Try to be appreciative and kind, it will endear you to
everyone, and you never know when you will never see
someone again. We don't always grasp what we have until it
is almost taken from us. Don't burn bridges because more
likely than not, you WILL see that person again. You
would be surprise how often people from your past crop up
later in your life.
I was never good at suppressing my emotions, but it is a
skill worth having during times of conflict with others.
Much conflict can be reduced if you pay attention to the
world around you, and not just your world. That you see
other people through eyes of love and not fear, that you
are quick to see the similarities and slow to see the
differences. Tap into your compassion whenever you get
angry, judgmental or disappointed at someone. Compassion
heals relationships, and makes you feel good inside and
strong.
I always had high expectations for myself and those around
me, and found myself disappointed way too often.
"Remember, happiness doesn't depend on who you are, or
what you have; it depends solely on what you think." Dale
Carnegie. Dennis Prager, an author and lecturer, came up
with this equation: Unhappiness = image - reality. It
means that we are unhappy when we create an image for
ourselves that we cannot possibly live up to- a perfect
friend or marriage, fame, financial independence. We have
two choices. Modify your image or modify your reality.
The former is easiest. Recognize how fortunate you are
instead of focusing on what you don't have. Happiness is
not money, things, or power; its gratitude says Richard
Edler. I couldn't agree more.
If I were saying "good-bye" to you today for the last
time, I would want you to know how much I love you, and
how much I wish our family could be closer. It's
difficult now to see how beneficial close family ties can
be when you are striving for your independence as young
adults, and your parents are so uncool. I know how you
feel. I was also a fiery independent teenager.
Independence is delicious, but true satisfaction comes
from interdependence.
I hope our family can become closer someday and that we
have fun times together. Friends, come and go through the
years, but family can be your steady perch to come back to
again and again. This is especially true with your
siblings. Your parents later in your life are likely not
to be around, but your sibling will likely be. Look at
Zeidie and his sisters, grandma Barbara and Aunt Ricki,
Uncle Josh and I for guidance . We all live far apart,
but in our hearts we are very close and mutually
supportive. Strong sibling relationship is a godsend in
old age. As a gerontologist, I saw that over and over
again. People who demonstrated vital aging did so with
strong sibling support.
The inverse is true too. Much unhappiness is caused by
family disputes. It's not always easy to forgive when
someone has hurt you, but try and resolve conflicts as
quickly as you can. Keep reaching out no matter what.
Put bruised egos and misunderstandings aside. More is at
stake. Grudges, disappointment and anger strangle the
spirit, and you were both meant to soar.
My wish for you both is that you tap into your unique
talents and bring your gifts to our world, and that you
give and receive love everyday of your life.
What I ask of you is simple. Please carry me forward by
transferring the love I have for you and give it to others
to promote their roots and wings. Carry me forward in your
kitchen with our favorite dishes that my parents and
grandparents shared with me, and you can share with those
you care about. If the oven is hot the heart is warm.
Carry me forward in your songs, poetry, art and dance. If
you do you will be celebrating all our ancestors and
connecting them to future descendants, your children and
grandchildren. Carry me forward with an optimism, tenacity
and devotion to social justice and social change. The
world can be a better place because of you. Carry me
forward and I will be with you always.
I Love You, Mom
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